Shakin' n Movin' n Movin' n Shakin' (longest title by far(this feels like a FOB song title))

 Hii, been a minute, I know my fans been waiting to hear from me and im sorry (but not that sorry). We moved a couple weeks ago so I'm just now trying to get into the groove of things. Man, I've missed my stuff so bad. Since the majority of my possessions had to be put in storage for around 2 months, it kinda felt like I've forgotten myself. I need to go back to myself real bad. Unfortunately I've been in kindof a rut because I've been just watching youtube/shows and scrolling on instagram instead of doing my hobbies or reading. I deleted instagram a couple weeks ago but that didn't even work, I need to really dig down and find her again through some hard work.

Also I've been trying to focus on my health. The first couple months after my gyno told me I have PCOS I didn't really make many lifestyle changes because I was starting a new job, moving, and life was pretty unsettled. But now I don't have an excuse now that we've settled in. I'm planning on starting to go to the gym for the first time but I'm trying to lock in on my nutrition first. Idk how people eat so much, I've never really had the habit but eating 3 full meals but I am trying. I want to get into this habit for the next couple weeks then join a gym to start strength training. I wanna get SWOLE!!!

Another update: I stopped talking to that dude, I guess it wasn't written for me but I'm not that broken over it. The whole time we were talking I was just waiting and waiting for me to feel something for him but it just didn't happen; and for a long time I thought I had lost the ability to feel but I later realized that wasn't the case. There were some things that I had been trying to ignore abt him but then it got too much for me and I had to end it. Of course I was disappointed because even if this wasn't the person I was going to have a serious relationship with, I still wanted to atleast grow and learn abt myself and I feel like I didn't even get a lesson to learn. But oh well, we move on.

But yeah, that's what's been on my mind lately. see ya in 2 months jkjk

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Random memory: When we were doing Hamlet in class I finally got the courage to sign up for a role that only had like one line. It was someone delivering some mail. I was still nervous.

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