Lessons
I recently had the realization that I have been stuck in a cycle. I found myself in the same situation that I was in before and I was wondering why it's happening again. My conclusion was that I didn't fully learn my lesson the first time. So, 3 weeks ago I started a new job in a new city, but instead of fully moving I have been staying at my brother's place with his wife as-well. Before I even started staying here, I of course had the worries that they won't actually want me here and that I'm taking up too much space; disturbing their peace. There is a parallel in this situation with one I have experienced before. I went to live with my uncle for work and I had the insecurity that my presence wasn't liked. It's like no matter how nice and welcoming someone is, I still have the worry that I am out of place. Recently I recognized that that says everything about me than it does for them. It is so unfair of me to assume that these kind and wonderful people hav...